Freud*

I am sure Freud would say

I have some sort of repressed memory

Something that happened

That makes me the way I am,

But what if

I am just the way I am?

Perhaps if I

Make up a reason,

Create a repressed memory,

I’ll have something to blame,

Something to call wrong,

So it will no longer be me

Who is wrong.

If I create a repressed memory

I’ll have somewhere to start.

A place from where

healing can begin.

If Freud is right

Maybe I can be alright

After all.

*I took an introduction to psychology course about ten years ago.  That is all I know about Freud, in other words I am not an expert and have no idea what he would say.  I don't think I have a repressed memory of a dramatic event, but I do at times think it would be nice if there was a reason why I have the struggles I have.  It would be nice to have something to blame so that I don't need to shoulder the blame.