The Road Ahead

I wrote this poem in June and then forgot all about it.  I am glad I am in a happier place now.

I’m a broken person

I can’t seem to get it right

How do I let in the sunshine

How can I keep out the night?

I’m blinking my hazards

Don’t get to close

My engine’s overheating

This time I might explode

And not even I can explain how I feel

I’ve felt more hurt than I know how to heal

And I don’t want to look backwards

But I don’t know how to go forwards

All alone at the top of a hill

Telling everyone I’m just fine.

I’ll shift to neutral cause i don’t care

The problems, the curses are mine

Go from here. don’t leave me alone.

I want you to listen, but you can’t know

Beg me, persuade me, fight for my heart

Forget me, reject me, just let me go.

And I wish I knew what to do when I feel

Will you hurt me more, will you help me heal

The road ahead’s through night and day
Will you come with me?  Will you sneak away?